Fuck! I just typed a bloody long post and i got back a 'page cannot be displayed'
Now im real pissed. Pissed with blogger, with school, with everything!
Now this post is gonna be short. I go thru life everyday, dreading to go to school.
Day in day out the same old boring shit. I should really skip school more often.
I see no point in going to school, i learn nothing or maybe its just me. I have NO motivation to go to school. As much as i have friends there, they arent exactly a motivating factor to me. I go to school, spend half of my day there, come home, eat dinner, surf the net a little and then im gone.
Its this tiredsome and boring cycle that i go thru everyday that i really appreciate the weekends more than ever. I also really love the days where i just take an off day from school and get a mc from a polyclinic. I dont have jc life, i hate SRJC. The school to me is crap, the teachers are horrible, they pick on me every single day. Constantly barking at me to study and not slack anymore. I myself am tired of slacking already cause there is no one to slack with! Then it just defeats the purpose of slacking! Its so dumb to slack alone! Im more pissed at the school than anything, i was stupid to have come to srjc. It is one of THE WORST JCS EVER! The only way i supress my anger and to make myself happy is to read up on other people's lives. Usually those from the other better jcs which i have always wanted to go. I read their blogs just to make myself jealous of them and at the same time feel happy for them, that they are not stuck in a crap school like i am. They seem to be having so much fun in their jcs while I am dreading to go to mine. I guess its just a facade that i create for myself just to make myself happy, its like seeing that other people are happy, im happy for them. I wish i could be happy WITH them more than for them. Now i just regret not studying for my 'O' levels and scoring a 9 pts. In the end, i get a 17 and end up nowhere, with my score being so in the middle for jc i end up going to a jc like SRJC. No use regretting now i guess, if i fail my promos at the end of the year and dont end up in j2, i'll most probably go to poly if the government allows or if not, army here i come. It beats staying at SRJC where im wasting my precious youth away. If only i had gone to ACS(I), then i would have been a different story.

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